Monday April 25th, 2011

Dear Diary,

So i guess it's been a while huh? I have been super busy. Ok I am always extremely busy. I just haven't been really stressed out until I realized I have a month to prepare for my MCAT. People have been preparing for MONTHS. I am sooooo screwed.

On a brighter side, I had an amazing easter with my baby. We sat around and then made diner. Granted it wasn't ham like I wanted but the bacon made up for it. We had breakfast for diner <3 Yay. I Should've done a shit ton of work this weekend but you know what I think I deserve time off sometimes and this weekend was it.

Ryan and I were talking and we are both super excited about living together next semester. I woke up with a "kink" in my neck this morning which has promptly turned into the throbbing pain that tells me that I won't be doing much tonight. Too bad I have class til 5:30 and then a poster presentation meeting. Yup it pretty much sucks. I hope I don't get sick.

Today is write a heart on your wrist to raise awareness about suicicde and depression. It is a symbol of having your heart on your sleeve and living your life with love. In other words, always show people you care because some people can be going through a hard time and you never know. Give people the benefit of the doubt. I think I do a pretty good job living by this rule or at least I try.

To Ryan: I love you very much. I wish you knew how much you mean to me 'cause you know you are my world. Sometimes I go crazy psycho bitch and yell at you about stupid shit and I really am trying to stop. I have breakdowns because sometimes I get scared that you are going to leave. I know you say that you aren't but you know how badly I was destroyed. Most of the time I just wanna run away and do like I did when my dad left. Be a big girl. Take care of myself. Its scary for me to need you as much as I do. I just wanted to tell you that I love you. A LOT.

Love always,
Me